An Introduction

Hi, I'm Anonymous, and I'm a Porn Addict. I'm a 24 year old bisexual male and I'm starting this blog on my 75th day of Sobriety. Why? Well, there's a few reasons.

I start this blog, rather than use any of my other blogs, because for this topic? I'd like my anonymity intact. Not every one of my friends and family are aware of my pornography addiction, and I'd much rather that my discussions on this subject not be connected to my name, where say potential employers can see it. It's a little cowardly, sure, but I have my reasons.
Further, as much as I read the blogs of other well-known porn addicts, I can't help but notice that a lot of them are written from an extremely sex-negative and anti-porn perspective. Perhaps that's not surprising - when the battle is long, arduous and hard, one perhaps can't help but hold their addiction in contempt afterwards. But regardless, these are not my perspectives. While I am a pornography addict, I am quite sex-positive. I do not believe that sex is in any way bad or shameful, and I do not believe that there is any particular sex acts that are inherantly harmful, as long as all participants in the act are consenting.

Further, I am pro-pornography - as much as I can no longer have it in my life, I understand that this is a problem with me, not with pornography in general. I do not believe that pornography is inherantly dangerous to anyone. After all, I know many people (my boyfriend included) who use pornography in a sane, responsible manner, with no addiction whatsoever. Unlike I once did, they do not spend every waking moment planning their next view of pornography, nor do they feel horrible after they view, yet keep watching it. Clearly, it's not the porn per se that's causing my addiction. It's clearly something within me.

Lastly, I start this blog to give me one extra bit of safeguard. For the longest time, I could not give up my addiction, no matter how hard I tried, and I believe it was because I was always trying to do it on my own. Now I am at 75 days sober, and I believe it is because there are others around me who know of my addiction. Much like the Days Sober box, I have on my whiteboard the number of days since I last acted out, and there are many visitors to my home who are aware of what that number means. Should I act out again, every one of those people will know, and that drives me to stay sober. I post this blog up to (hopefully) amplify this effect - should I gain any readers, I'll have more reason to stay sober.

So that's my reasons for starting this blog. I hope to write about my experiences being an addict, my thoughts about porn, sex and addiction in general, and possibly some other slightly tangential topics. So, visitors, friends, and such - welcome to my blog.